Life and Beyond

  THE VOICE OF ALL NITYAS OUT THERE !!   The human Dairy, Writing is not definitely my cup of tea. Might sound like an irony when I say so, as I usually write a lot. But writing a dairy and letting my heart out are ways apart to me. Still might be pathetic to say, but writing a diary and writing something my heart out are somehow similar. But the crave for a friend when you badly need one is different. The crave for the understanding is different. The crave for feeling myself at times is different. I am definitely a master of doing all the shitty businesses. But still has no shame and blames her vehemence time and again. That’s exactly how we all are. Feels tiring, but I don’t really wish to do so. But I still do that. If you ask me why? I don’t know. But the fear of being alone definitely sucks. Do I feel guilty about doing the things i have done so far? Yes, I definitely do. But Do I regret it as much as I should? Not, really. I would have regretted it if it was intention

To all the boys i have loved before Just like lara Jeans in the movie, I fell in love with you. Not once , not twice but every single time see you. You are not just the boy i had loved before You are the boy i will be loving my entire life May be it's just a lie As I have been telling this,  to all the boys i have loved before The Lara Jeans in me, Is what that drags me away from you very single time. I ran away, showed you every thing that i was not Still got Peter like acceptance to a Lara Jeans like me. The clumsy one, The insecure one. But it's it obvious of me to be little insecure than yesterday. Cause i surely dont want to state you as, To all the boys I have loved before. The profane is the demon that distorts my tranquility What I propel and what I profane is exactly the opposite. And you exactly know what it is. Nothing to clarify and make you believe. With a relief and the believe that you are not the boys i have loved before The strom in me gets litter calmer than y